Being happy isn't a permanent state.
You have to keep working at it.
Well, on the bright side... I guess it becomes a whole lot more satisfying knowing that you've earned it!
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Well, hello! It has been ages since I have last updated and I may not be making it a habit to continue... I just didn't want to leave this space hanging on such a depressing note.
Today's the day that I turn twenty seven. The past few updates were mainly around the time I turned twenty six - a good year ago. A lot has changed since then and a lot has not.
I've not grown any taller. I did lose some weight, but after tonight's meaty and fatty dinner... that just might change. I do have shorter hair. My guinea pigs have both died. The list goes on and on, but the biggest difference between the 27-year-old Allie and her 26-year-old (yes, I still refer to myself in the third person) is that she has found her happiness, inner peace, balance, etc.
I used to beat myself up trying to understand what it takes to be happy so much so, that I just couldn't be happy. No matter how good things were, no matter how much I had... I couldn't be happy. It was like an obsession or a curse. Things felt so dark and I lost my voice.
After what seemed like forever, I finally took baby steps to rediscover myself. Priorities became clearer and so did my thoughts. Positivity and self confidence took over and before I knew it, I was happy. I realised I was chasing the kinda happiness that exists in one's head and not the kind that radiates from deep inside your soul. I know, it's like d'oh! So, I'm a little slow... I never claimed to be a genius.
Anyway, I'm in a really good place now and I intend to be here forever. Wishing everyone out there loads of love and peace.
Find me a shell
I'd like one that I can crawl into and hide out until this storm ends.
Would be good if the shell comes with: a swimming pool, an open bar, lots of good books, a masseuse, a manicurist, personal shopper, sushi chef and a cuddly husky that loves me.
Would be good if the shell comes with: a swimming pool, an open bar, lots of good books, a masseuse, a manicurist, personal shopper, sushi chef and a cuddly husky that loves me.
I Think Too Much
Have you ever had something which was bothering you. So, you think about it, dwell on it AND wreck your brains out trying to put the issue to bed.... until you reach a point where you almost forgot what you were thinking about and why it was bothering you? Well, all I know is that I have this unpleasant feeling that just won't go away.
Happiness is Overrated
When I see lovey dovey couples, I feel like scoffing. I hate to be sour grapes and all, but today is one day where I don't see a point in some of the things I do anymore. It is all so confusing and I don't know jack shit.
